So after my 'O' levels ended, and my results was not out yet!
My dad had to break this really unfortunate news of, 'Hi, your Ah Yi want to sell this flat, you all need to move out'. And hell no did he say this casually to me of course. This news was like running through my mind like: " SO WHERE THE FUCK DO I STAY?!" First thought that came to my mind was to frantically look up on websites etc to find a place to stay at (aimlessly finding and crying). In any case, sisters were both staying with their boyfriends. Lucky them! Me? Unlucky lo.
That was one hell time please as I only have 2 weeks left to find a place to shift out, if not I have to sleep on the streets already! But I was lucky enough that previously my sisters was working for this shop and that the boss have a spare house to rent out. It's a one room flat at Telok Blangah Rise. So yeah.. Started living my life really all alone at the age of 16. FML. So basically living alone meaning, YEAHHHH~ FREEDOMMMM! to most people of course.
To me, FUCK! LONELY TTM! So kinda turned my house into a stayover night house. Why? GFs and guy friends come over to accompany me cause I'm like emoji at home alone! Facing the four walls, no laptop then cause I was so pathetically poor to even buy one despite working PT. I only have my old house TV shifted so that I could well, entertain myself at times of loneliness, in this case it is SO OFTEN!
Like I said living alone in that one room flat was kind of scary and creepy thou. I almost cry myself to sleep daily as every night, there's this banging sound coming from the top floor and in the middle of the night at 3am! 3 freaking AM PLEASE, the doorbell RINGS! And when I went to take a look at it, there's no one out there! ='( My poor boyfriend always receive calls by me in the middle of the night with me crying over the phone whining for him to come over cause that stupid doorbell scares me. Plus that area is super isolated. X.x!!!
So when I got my 'O' level results out, obviously I didn't do well as I was berating myself since my mother's death. Who would have the mentality at age 16 to think that: "OH I GOTTA BE A GOOD DAUGHTER AND MORE SENSIBLE EVEN THOU MY DAD DON'T BOTHER ABOUT ME ANYMORE~ YEAHH!" So rebellious was the word indeed during that period. But thanks to my friends who have pushed me to really study for my 'O' levels, even though I did not really do very well in it, but I gave my best shot. Well, when the results was out I didn't cry cause it was EXPECTED of me to enter ITE(it's the end as what most pandang elderly thinks)! But trust me, those were the moments that I really decided to SLOG MY LIFE OUT to score well.
My ITE days was better in the sense that, YES. I have counselling again. FML. But this time I took the counselling seriously cause I don't want to be burden with this hatred and hurt forever. Getting a bursary without my dad's CPF statement was a blessing. Usually, they wouldn't approve of such cases cause I never contacted my dad or even see him, except once a year during CNY (rarely thou). The staff in ITE was very well-aware of my situation and thus allow the approval for my bursary application, was very very grateful to them. That bursary really helped me alot for that one whole year. $800 was scrimp and save just to sustain me throughout that year. Plus my working pay of $200-$300 + per month. And yes, I do grocery shopping too. Clothes detergent ETC + food + bath necessities. Just like any of your mother would have done exactly monthly. & yes, I have to carry those shit home alone, it was HEAVY! -_-!!!! But sometimes, my bf do help me with the groceries. Sometimes.. =x
So you all must be wondering, ehhhh you no com how you do your project in ITE? GOOD QUESTION! Either settle it in school or go BF house do. LOL! & I was very demanding and a perfectionist with my project previous and well got this freeloader girl who in all her projects never do anything at all. As I was the leader for all group projects, I was very particular about the contents and stuff which I was actually very proud of. But there were conflicts at school and stuff thou. So yeah..
So after staying about a year at Telok Blangah Rise, the owner, well I think might be due to my sister quitting her job etc there and that I realized that the house i'm renting they had actually rented it from the govt and stuff, which in fact should be cheap right? In any case my rent was like $150/mth + utilities ownself pay. LOL! They earned about near to $100/mth from me. FAINT! So yeah, this time I was also left with 2 weeks to find another flat to shift to. FML! And my current boyfriend, previously, didn't help me to look out for flats etc and well, someone did thou. But ahh well, he's -_-!!!! forget it. Don't want to say.
Called my dad up and tell him I need a flat to stay in, so ended up shifting back to their new house that they have bought at Chai Chee Street, which in turn I only managed to stayed for a month and well, argued with my step-mum again, i mean NO I DID NOT RETALIATE. This time I just kept quiet and let her torment me throughout this whole one month. But apparently, first time I see my dad retaliate for me. FIRST TIME! Was very touched! Why? HE SLAPPED HER HARD BACK! I was shocked actually cause my dad love her a lot (in which me and my sisters always say she have put a spell on my dad cause he everything also listen to her). Cause daddy was asking her to stop hitting me but she refused to and hit me even harder. I could have made a police report then but I didn't! Daddy even told me sorry during night time when I was outside sitting with him in the living room, each a booze for us to well, chill all the unhappiness away. He had actually wanted to leave her previously but cause she was with his child he couldn't, that's why he keeps apologizing to me. But I know, daddy is suffering too, that's when I stop hating him after seeing him cry again in front of me. Just like the times when he cried during mummy's funeral almost every night after after that for few months till he met well, my stepmum.
Reason why I got kicked out this time round: Wearing bedroom slipper at home is quite common right? Well, not for me as she said that my fluffy bedroom slipper have caused my baby sister skin to get irritation again. Firstly, my bedroom slipper is used in my bedroom only and I lock my bedroom door one ok! So firstly, she did asked me to throw my slipper away cause it was causing my baby sis rashes etc. But wth lo. I'm wearing it in my bedroom. But in any case I never throw it away until one day, I accidentally wore it out to the living room, BAM! I KENA SLAP! (Y) Best day of my life. So I went to throw it immediately and mind you all, my baby sis don't have any skin allergy to my slipper, my stepmum just HATES ME out of jealousy (which she admitted herself in the midst of her anger and abuse physically towards me, and no I neve retaliate. -_-! Just stand there let her hit. ) So after that, I shifted AGAIN.
So for now I have shifted from 700+ tampines to 893A tampines to 812 tampines to bedok central and then back to 812 then to Telok Blangah to Chai Chee to Bedok North. My friends all say I'm going to complete staying the whole of Singapore le. LOL
So long story cut short, in a few months from Bedok North to Bedok Reservoir (my ah ma house) to Tampines St 21 (my ex ji-em house) which well, she's a bitch. So argued and shifted out. Her actions and words disgust me. Horrible stay, cried etc. Act like strangers etc. Word contract breached too. From her and she dare to blame me? -_-!! Watch TV cannot, use com cannot. Come home late? Lock me out of the house. I was working nightlife during my ITE days. Don't judge me! Working at a gaming bar ok. Not those sleazy pub etc. & I AM PAYING RENT TO STAY AT HER HOUSE! MIND HER! Seriously pissed that time. Then say what I ITE no use etc etc. YA LA! I know your 2 daughters smart la. JC & Uni student, stop comparing me to them tyvm. I'm ME!
So after that arguement, well well, she gave me a week to find a flat and shift out if not she is going to throw my stuff away. =O I must be jinxed my this whole life. Like seriously, I cried like hell and even called my dad but BLAH! He isn't helping. So have to start sourcing for flats myself again. But was really lucky this time. I was left with like 3 days before she's going to throw my stuff out till I found a flat to stay in with an elderly couple. It was a happy stay there for about 2 years I guess. They treated me like my own daughter and even cook meals at times for me to eat cause I'm always skipping my meals.
But I did successfully graduated from ITE with a well-to-do GPA that enables me to enter Temasek Polytechnic Diploma in Hospitality and Tourism Management now. =)
To be honest, I really miss my ITE days, it was fun, enjoyable and even thou there was many shifting within 2 years, but I felt that I have live to the fullest during those times.. Yes minor politics in class but everyone was 'don't bitch behind my face, say it in front of me' type of attitude. (Except for one girl who thinks she's a princess and the whole class HATES her. Used to be in my clique thou, but we all isolated her. She's -_-!!! Forget it. Say le vomit blood one.)
So what are my poly days like?
To be continued....
So for now I have shifted from 700+ tampines to 893A tampines to 812 tampines to bedok central and then back to 812 then to Telok Blangah to Chai Chee to Bedok North then to Bedok Reservoir Rd then to Tampines St 21 then to Pasir Ris. Well well, being kicked around like a ball non-stop. My friends all joking that in future if they are going to shift house call me go help pack, cause i'm super experienced in it already. -_-!!!
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