DO NOT PATRONIZE.......

I know I have not been blogging much or updating *if there are any readers in my blog*

Anyway, I got an injustice to rant about and I sincerely from the bottom of my fucking EVIL HEART wish that the business will close down by the end of this year!!!

Here goes:
As most people know last month July I worked for this Meido-cafe (Those otaku boys fantasy cafe) around city hall area.
Pronunciation of the Meido cafe is very similar to kawaii (Will not state the official name in case my friend get sued by the BASTARD!)

So I worked  there for one day only during July as I was unhappy with the pay stated by my interviewer and the boss. The interviewer labelled as 'G' ok? Stated that my pay would be $6.50/hr (my expecting pay was $7 btw). So I agreed and so did he, both came to an agreement of my working hours and other miscellaneous stuff including training.

So on my first day of work, the lady boss labelled 'M' (a bitch btw HIAKS), placed me to work the closing shift alone. Not only that, I wasn't even given any training at all and she expect me to prepare the food which on that day my jobscope was just to take orders which I had self memorized before work commence (I went to work 30minutes earlier). But asking me to prepare the food I was like WTH, it's my first day?! And for a rate of a pathetic $6.50 you expect your meidos to greet, take orders, cook, clean up, barista, cashier. YOUMADYO?! So when I told her I don't know how to prepare the meal that she mentioned she just TSK and roll her eyes at me then point it out to me. Hello? I just step into the cooking area you know? So nevermind, prepared the food for her daughter (when the cb cereal is just in front of her and she is just to lazy to prepare her own daughter's meal, FAIL)

So when it was evening time, the 'older' staff knocked off work, leaving me alone with the big boss labelled 'E' (the main BASTARD). He expects the experienced staff to teach me how to cook all the dishes etc cause he himself (as the boss) doesn't know how to. JOKE! Btw, he is from a really rich family and have a very stuck-up attitude around him and he looks like a girl, including his actions. (I'm not bias against gay people, I love them in fact, provided they are not those nasty ones, nasty ones should just DIE.) And to make your experienced staff to stay back to teach me with no additional pay, seriously? You never heard of treating your staff good = they will help you to generate more sales?? So nevermind, just on my first day itself I learned of the menu and cashiering and a little cooking of their menu items (IN WHICH THEY SAY IS RAMEN BUT IS ACTUALLY MAGGIE MEE LA). 

So when the cafe was empty at around 8+, I went around doing the usual cleaning etc and stuff and prepare for closing. In which their coffee machine is different from the type used in school so I naturally am unsure of how to fucking remove it and 'E' asked me whether I know how to or not? And I said no, he said die la. But luckily he knows how to do so if not seriously, he can go bang wall. And after that he had a really long chat with me with small threats placed in his conversation with me which he thinks that I would not notice. You kidding me? It's so fucking obvious. Not only that, tries to act close with me. You know like customer service, know how to empathize with em so they will trust you etc.

So I told his partner 'M' that I will try out this week and see how it goes before deciding whether or not I want to continue the job, plus with the pay given and the amount of jobscope that I have to perform do not tally at all. So he was like saying:

E: Hey, I heard from M that you are just trying out right? You don't lie to me ok. In here, no one have secrets and I don't like secrets

Me: *Thinking to myself why would I even lie to you? LAMEEE* Yupp. Just wanted to try out and see how it goes.

E: Is it because of the pay?

Me: Yes. I find that the pay do not work well with me. *proceeds to tell him my long family financial situation*

E: I understand how you feel. But for me, I just started learning to manage my own money cause my parents always give me what I want. But now, I am working I spend my own hard-earn money I also have to consider.

Me: Ya, i always go and source for cheap items including food etc before purchasing blah blah. *Just my rubbish talk* But I will try out this week first and consider.

E: But you know you are very lucky that we hire you, huh? There's this uni student that even applied for this job but we rejected her, you know we have about 100 applicants that send in their resume but we hire you? That uni student also siao one uh, uni want to work here. You see how popular my cafe is?
Ok. To be honest, we hire you mainly also because you are pretty, you can attract the market that we want to (On my 1st day of work got 2-3 customers requesting to take photo with me already, trying so hard to keep me at work. NO CHANCE. Anyway also not much customer that day. #FAIL). But since you got this job already shouldn't you treasure it? I am giving you this opportunity to earn money you know? And if anyone bully you or don't want to teach you just tell me ok? I help you to lecture them, and if got gossips around here tell me (THE GOSSIP KING IS U LO! PLUS MAMA ME DON'T GOSSIP cause I hate politics!). But usually we will have a thrash out session so you don't have to worry. All the girls here very bitchy one and I always call them sluts (MY BRAIN WENT: WTF SLUT IS NOT A WORD TO LABEL ANY WOMAN U BASTARD), they just laugh it off. hur hur (The tone used when he said slut, he meant it as slut slut, how can that be joking you tell me?!). You see, you work here we won't ill-treat you. But if the girls and you ever get close and want to plan an outing, I won't allow all, if all go who will look after my shop for me huh? I very busy you know? *And more proud talks which is annoying me*

Me: Erm.. Ok. I will consider again. *Forgotten what I said anyway, had an hr conversation with the bastard*

So I was scheduled to work 2 days later and the lady boss 'M' arranged a total screw up schedule which is not what I have discussed of with 'G'. Then I came to realize if you don't take notice of your staff schedules and just place them to work without planning, total disrespect for the staff. No point in me working for you and your plastic smiles. So I sms-ed and told them Thursday will be my last day of work and thank them for the job opportunity. Guess what? They kicked me out of the group chat immediately and never inform me anything about the 2nd day work and not to say my pathetic 1 day pay which I slogged and dirtied my hands on for. I clean, wash the dishes, sweep and mop the floor, wipe the tables and chairs etc, throw the rubbish etc all alone. 'E' only helped to do the cashier closing and passed me the used utensils. So there, I am not paid for my 1 day job.

So now I shall spill that outlet dirty deeds.
Firstly! Their storeroom is in a mess and there are tons of baby cockroaches in the cafe *smugs*
You didn't knew!

Secondly, the maid uniform are mostly UNWASHED! EEEWW! Imagine guest taking photo with the meidos and touching their dirty linens. WAHAHAHAHAHA!

Thirdly, their table cloth is SO DIRTY that at the end of the day no one bother to rinse it (i did on that day for them) and it stinks like hell. Imagine wiping the table and chairs with those yucky cloth! HAHAHA!!!

Fourthly, the ramen is basically maggie mee and the ingredients used are sometimes expired or mouldy and smells funny, yet is still being served to the guest (poor guest, luckily no one food poisoning yet!)

Fifth, the desserts, mainly cakes!!! Have been refrigerated for almost a year and not sold out yet, DON'T EVER BUY THEIR CAKE! You die none of my business, I warned you. HAHA

Sixth: GIRLS who are currently working there, I HOPE YOU SEE THIS or maybe not cause I might get into trouble, stop being their PETS. EEWWW.. Plus the staff there currently looks are normal. SCOFF!!

Seventh: If you girls suddenly quit, TRUST ME! THEY WON'T PAY YOU A SINGLE CENT! Just like me and 2 other girls. That is why all the pioneer batch left after E took over the business from the previous boss.

So my friend went to MOM to sue the Bastard 'E' after being unable to get him or 'M' on their mobile, they ignored her sms and mine as well when I thick skin asked for my one day pay (apparently they hide our punch cards too or perhaps destroyed it already) and he threatened her so she dropped the case. HELLO! I worked 1 day so if you are not paying me, fine, I won't say anything. My friend who is the pioneer batch worked so  hard for you and you are not giving her her pay? Threatened her somemore.

Conversation btw me and my gf:

Now tell me, does such boss deserve his business to survive and continue preying on innocent girls?!
NO!!!!!!
So if we join the company we can't quit, if we do we can't get paid even if we worked for many days?
UNREASONABLE! BASTARD!!
I just hope that my friend would have the courage and open up the case and win this law suit.
And do not ever patronize (C)Kawaii Koohii at FUNAN IT MALL (trying to make the name not so obvious. AHEM).
NEVER!!!!
Unless you all want to die of food poisoning one day i beg you to just go.
Ok BYE!

Help spread the love people to prevent harm to other girls from working there and getting cheated of their pay and prevent people from dying from their food!

*hurts to type with my long nails* damn!

白羊座

Saw this on facebook about Aries.

My chinese literacy rate is kinda low so understand a little here and there.

And yes, I like to put up a strong front, but I ain't one.

I admit. But *shrugs*

About a month away to exams! =S

JIAYOU!

白羊座会在别人不开心的时候 让别人开心 会在别人孤单的时候 帮别人走出孤独 会在别人哭的时候 安慰别人不哭 但 我们忘了 忘了在某个时候 自己那么难过 我们忘了 忘了在某个时候 自己是一个人熬过最难过的时候 我们忘了 忘了在某个深夜 自己哭

的一塌糊涂 白羊座的我们在别人面前永远都不哭 。。。

其实白羊一点儿也不物质，只是很难找到可以为之奋斗的目标，所以只好以表面的物质为目标，找不到目标的白羊很空虚，只好用对物质的追求填充自己。可是如果找到可以坚持的，可以奉献一切，不计得失的奉献！被白羊爱着绝对是幸福的事，可是被白羊爱上又是很难的。

白羊很独立,可是这不代表他们不需要依靠,他们需要,很需要!他们需要一份精神上的支持,鼓励和安慰,需要有人关心,有人照顾,有人依赖,需要有人寒夜里问他冷不冷?需要有人在他孤独害怕的时候握紧他们的手,需要有人给他们极大的安全感,一直保护着他们,在任何情况下都能抱紧他们,对他们不离不弃。。。

白羊在爱情方面绝对是专情的，他们的外表看起来非常的文静，并且总有一种神秘的色彩，似乎让人永远看不透。其实，白羊的爱情很单纯，也很简单，也深藏着强烈的嫉妒之心，只是因为他们爱恨分明，爱情的态度非常明确，他们爱的深，所以害怕被伤害，因此不会轻易踏出第一步。

白羊座的人表面都是大大咧咧的，他们很坚强，不容易哭，但是哭起来却撕心裂肺。白羊座的人占有欲很强，可是他们不想表明，却可以用眼神杀死你。白羊座的人敢爱敢恨，敢拿敢放，多数白羊忘记一段爱情很容易。白羊座的人很讲义气，说话直来直去，有时候得罪了别人还不知道，他却可以为朋友付出一切。

白羊座是很容易被感动的。表面上，爱逞强，私底下，很多白羊是爱哭鬼，只是不愿意在人前掉泪而已。所以，当白羊被人爱护的时候会很感恩(不只是感动哦)，并把这些都默默记在心里，也期望能回报别人。这些感动白羊的事物是白羊能继续相信人性有光明温暖一面的动力。

白羊都是白痴？ 很多人这样评价白羊，我承认，羊在面对朋友甚至感情时确实很“白痴”，你首先要明白一点，当面对朋友或感情的时候，羊的智商永远之有5岁小孩子的程度。不是因为羊天生是白痴或者智商低下，而是他们不想去想，拒绝去想。他经常觉得，生活简单一点就好，糊涂一点就快乐。。。

如果被白羊座吼，被白羊座欺负，不是敌人，就是亲密。亲密敌人：因为你不会离开，不会改变，不会计较，才深得白羊之爱。白羊遇事会找一个人发脾气，这个人就是他的亲密敌人！

白羊基本上是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他们又总是很忧伤。白羊总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩，他们不会让别人发现。白羊座的人很怕被伤害怕被抛弃，也怕带给别人伤害和不快乐，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以白羊很神经质、精神脆弱、容易感伤。

白羊羊。。。坚强吧！没人理我们的了。。。

Easily manipulated

When i'm upset, I just binged on good food. Cheese stick from Hokkaido fair.

As the title says so. Yes. Me.
Before I start typing or whatsoever, disclaimers will be added.
*Not referring to anyone in particular, just basically people revolving me. & no this is not school related at all.
Just like close ones etc. So here goes:




At times, I felt really easily manipulated. And today, out of a sudden, from no where a sudden thought just triggered my angst button. Unexpectedly, YES.
I came to think of things like, 'why am I always the one that goes to find my friends or love ones but never them coming to find me'.
Taken for granted much?
And then further thoughts like 'I know I needed those extra cash but I stopped working due to reasons and put myself in such a difficult spot that this month I don't even know how to survive'.
I'm left with like $100 for the month, tell me. HOW TO SURVIVE.
Thanks to those bills. Anyway...
And another thought goes like 'why can't anyone keep their promises at all (something which really pisses me off)'.


So today, I just plunged into something, I know it is going to screw up my whole schedule set a month ago and stuff, but I really need a stable job if someone is well, shall not say. -zips-
I went to an interview at Cawaii Kohii today for the position of a part-time meido.
All along I have been a fan of anime and manga and whatever japp-ish you name it. I tell you.
Well, not exactly on the spot, but near the line. You get what I mean.


Yes, I did got that job which will take up 4 days of my week.
Meaning lesser time to accompany the boy or any friends.
But to think that, this is actually the first time I did something thinking about my own interest instead of others.
I know I needed the spare cash, I need a stable job, not those events job that is killing me.
Even thou this job does not provide meals despite being in the f&b industry(1st time I heard of), but hey. The people there are friendly. And yes, the meidos there have to do cooking and washing.
Pathetic? IKR. But, it's good cause basically able to pick up some cooking skills so that I can whip up dishes at home in any case the maid doesn't cook.


So i'm basically throwing aside my bf and friends just to work hard and try to survive till August arrives.
Work will commence next week usually holding the 5pm shift on weekdays and one opening shift on Wednesday before I have to rush to school (in my meido uniform -_-) 
I'm so gonna be judged. But let's just set that aside and try to juggle school, work and leisure.
I know it's going to be tough and that exams are in fact nearing soon.
But I will do my best not to disappoint myself.


So Denise. GAMBETEI! Time to think for yourself and not others.
Not this time, i'm sick of it already.
Really. SICK is the word to describe how I am feeling now.
But whatever.
Just gotta really work towards my goal even if it seems bleak in the theory wise.
But I will get past it.

The day I electrocuted myself.

I know the title sounds ridiculous and I SWEAR IT IS!

BUT YES I ELECTROCUTED MY RIGHT PALM TODAY!

I know you must be thinking, WTF! Why did you even torture yourself.

HELL NO I DID NOT!

Firstly, the plug cover came off, and I just did the usual.

Yes with the switch on, I know idiot me.

Expecting things to be as usual. HELL NO!

The fucking cover dropped and I wanted to smack it hard to fix it back.

There, I get the electric waves straight into my body.

My right hand was numb for a good 30minutes, followed by pain and well rly bad open pores.

Check out my super obvious palm lines due to the open pores.

After that check out my nice hand. 

It practically cease down now to this small blisters. Can't rly see it due to it's 'small-ness'

And I went to did some lame thingy which came out quite true.

But it was more of the past me. SORT OF.

I used to be impartial. Let's see, only to people's problems thou.

My own. I screw them up like one hell. #truestory.

I tend to treat people equally unless something click open my cache I go either T-T or ROARRRRR!

Ya sort of.

I don't get about the too cool thingy, practically people used to say i'm cool etc.

Not true. I'm just silent at times and noisy at times.

I mean, it really depends on the occasion and clique right?

100% faithful, that is when i'm in a relationship unless I felt that it have died down.

Things have to be done, harsh ones. Just let go.

Or if I can't feel the importance  of me in that person's life, I will let go too despite loving him so much.

And basically IQ wise. Erm. Just read:

                                       There have been various classification systems for IQ.

 

                                                        Terman's classification was (6):

 

IQ Range	Classification
140 and over	Genius or near genius
120-140	Very superior intelligence
110-120	Superior intelligence
90-110	Normal or average intelligence
80-90	Dullness
70-80	Borderline deficiency
Below 70	Definite feeble-mindedness

 

(Terman wrote the Stanford-Binet test (1), which has a SD of 16.)

 

Later, Wechsler thought that it would be much more legitimate to base his classifications on the Probable Error (PE) so his classification was (6):

 

Classification	IQ Limits	Percent Included
Very Superior	128 and over	2.2
Superior	120-127	6.7
Bright Normal	111-119	16.1
Average	91-110	50
Dull Normal	80-90	16.1
Borderline	66-79	6.7
Defective	65 and below	2.2

Mental deficiency used to be more finely classified using the following technical terms that later began to be abused by the rest of society (5):

IQ Range	Classification
70-80	Borderline deficiency
50-69	Moron
20-49	Imbecile
below 20	Idiot

These are now largely obsolete and mental deficiency is now generally called mental retardation.  The following is the currently used classification of retardation in the USA (5):

IQ Range	Classification
50-69	Mild
35-49	Moderate
20-34	Severe
below 20	Profound

Moreover, "educable mentally retarded" is roughly equivalent to mild mental retardation, and "trainable" mentally retarded is roughly equivalent to moderate (5).  The DSM now requires an assessment of a person's adaptive functioning as an additional criterion for labeling someone retarded.  IQ is not enough.  Maybe the same sort of thing should be done for labeling somebody a genius.

So i'm just like the norm. No i'm not smart. I do admit that.

What's there to be shy of? No hush hush.

Cause I do things without using my brain to think and always end up in trouble.

I know. I should change. I will. Promise. =D

I think my strengths is a problem to me.

It lands me into hot pot.

#NOJOKE

Being too straightforward and not thinking things through and just blurting it out.

BAD MOVE. But i'm changing. I SWEAR!

My weakness in Patronizing.

Hmmm.. I don't know to say it's good or bad.

Basically if my gfs ring me up in the middle of the night or whatever and in tears or not.

I will definitely take a cab down, near or far.

I do admit it's my weakness to care for all my close friends.

But I just don't want them to get hurt.

But sometimes, not much will treat me the way I treat them.

I have people who back stabbed me countless times in Secondary school.

Trust me, all I do is slp in class or in dc rm or at hm SLEEPING during those days.

Yeah. Freedom as no one controlled me so I wanted attention from my dad who wasn't living with me.

Just get into shit loads of trouble till he notices ME & not his new family.

I grew up without my parent's love, so yeah.

Back to topic:

I don't even know how I always get into all this shit when my body and soul isn't really in school.

But in the end I always forgive them, help them to tide through their own problems when I have truckloads myself about my family.

I'm the forget the problem the next day or maybe a couple of days and just let it go.

Either by eating excessively or just punch stuff. Wall etc.

I don't do the punching now, just more of binge eating as usual.

Food makes one happy.

NOT KIDDING HERE. It helps. Or just go SCREAM AHHHHHHHHHHH!

I know i'm a very pessimistic person and yes the word DEATH have been hanging on me ever since my mum pass away. It's to the extend that I committed suicide when I was 10, but failed.

2 elder sis pulled me back from the edge. 

What was I thinking? I don't know.

Really.

Maybe cause the fact that dad wasn't around mostly.

Like in a year, he's only home for a week and then he will be gone again.

Throwing me and my sisters at home, with a maid.

And having my ah ma to come to our house daily to help out.

And yeah she's naggy most of the times and we rebelled and got punished and slapped and whatever.

But I know she dote on us.

Thank you ah ma to help us tide through during our younger days.

She paid our(3 sisters) school fees and school books and allowance during our primary school days.

Oh why? Cause daddy wasn't home much ever since mummy's death.

SO BLAH!

I mean I don't think of it as much as I used to now.

But you know like perhaps you are at a tall building or up the escalator.

Death thoughts are actually still in me.

Like if i jump down from the escalator how or accidentally fall off?

Or what if the lift malfunction and the wire snap and the lift goes BOOM!

Or if I cross the road and get bang by a car how?

I know, stupid thoughts indeed. 

HIAKS. But no, death is not a solution people.

So just forget and get over it ASAP before you think too much and really put action to it.

That's when people will be sad and cry over your death.

But i'm also grateful to my bffs as in secondary school, most of their parents know that I do not have a mum.

They all treated me like their own daughter, shower me with love like a mother.

Some do nag at me, surprisingly.

Of course on my studies, what else. HAHA..

But i'm actually glad I did not stray too badly.

No drugs etc and stuff. So yeah.

(2 cigg does not count!)

Oh I still remember choir in secondary and primary school days!

AHHH! Memories and fun moments.

Of course. I was leading the S1 section. Proud of it.

But teaching them was KILLING ME, cause juniors wanted breaks only.

Kinda meeehhhh at trying to get them to practice their singing.

But I realize, people hate me at first cause they think i'm very ah-lianish.

BUT I'M NOT! T-T

But whatever the case, eventually they get to know me. Accept me for who I am.

Very straightforward back then. I don't like a particular person I just say so why and why.

Now I just shut up, don't talk.

Getting old, don't wanna strike conversations.

Just want to be mostly alone, and sometimes not.

But all in all, life is given to me. I'm grateful for it.

Thankful for my mum giving birth to me and well given that my name is different from my elder sisters.

Don't know why, daddy said I was special but I don't think so.

My 2 sisters are felicia and fiona. I'm a D for denise.

And their chinese name are like hui qi, hui min.

I'm a CAI YUN! -_-!

Don't ask me why. I don't know.

KK! BB! Go sleep.

Gonna wake up early to type my report etc for early submissions as well as project parts.

And CDPTXZ, thank you and sorry.

For being stubborn, for not thinking about how you all felt.

For just ranting what I wanna rant and cause disharmony with the wrong usage of words.

I really mean no harm.

But i'm glad that we cleared things up.

And I thank you all for noticing my effort and constantly answering to my queries.

Thank you. I'm really grateful.

I will change to be as cheerful as possible.

To live with no regrets regardless of any setbacks.

Despite my age, I still have a lot to learn about life eh. =D

P.S: I screwed F&B Q&A, kinda feeling horrible.

BUT IT'S OVER! So shall not think about it and just worry about the results and other projects.

For now.

*Gulps*

Went shopping today too! Had fun.

Been long since I shopped due to financial shitty.

But have some spares this month so SHOP.

And next month having extra $ given by govt.

Saving time! Till next semester = WORK!

Save $$$$ and pay all the shitload bills that I can pay.

And save up for year 4(yes i'm going year 4) school fees.

LE SIGH!

My life revolves around bills, this sucks.

But LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE!

I'm graduating soon. 1 year 2 months more to go *cough*

Emotion-less?

That's what I heard from 2 of my close friends today during out meet ups.
They said that I have changed.
To someone so expression-less.
I guess I kinda lost my happy self in the midst of everything and somehow forgotten how to smile. Genuinely.
I'm like an eeyore, really sad and dull and whatever it is his characteristic is. That's me.
I tend to wonder. What really happened?
I don't know, guess I will never find out unless I seek.
Shall see how. Maybe just tired of life.
I guess.

I do no talking.

I realize. I 'talk' more over text or on a chat.
I don't talk or interact much in person.
I wonder why.
Hmmm..

2 different worlds.

People that don't blend. Just don't blend.

Binge eating on food tonight.

Value.

What's yours?

Everyone have dreams and goals, but how many really stick to it?